Hmmx... Dunno y, but suddenly miss u.. NItex sweetie, take care and sweet dreams=D

Must jiayou for ur A level hor=D

Hehe..

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Hi dear... Its finali a term break for u=D Must take care k? This few days, i had been tinking of alot of stuff... hahaz..

OK , slp tight and hoey dreams.. tAke care dear=p

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Today is teacher's day celebration... Hahaz... Told my fren abt it, and he said, since when got teacher's day celebration... Yup, its been a long time since...

Well... Jus wanna drop by, to say may all things goes smoothly for my dear today=D Take care and use this opportunity to rest k? Dun too stress.. Take care sweeitee=)

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Reali miss having night studies during last year... The time, where the usual few of us will stay together and study, chat, laugh, and then pool!! Haz.. NBm....

Dear, dear, dear... Have an early nitex... I can sensed that u are pretty stressed especially when the Dates are drawing nearer and nearer... Must take care of ur health leh.. Dun be so stressed... Reali hurts me when i see u so stressed up.. Well.. sweet dreams and take care dear!!

Hehe... MIss U leh....DUnno y, i suddenly keep thinking of ur eyes..=P

hahaz=D

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I love u dear.. Sweet dreams and take care=P

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U know something? Theere is this small little feeling in my heart that is rather uncomfortable.. And i wan to spill it out...

I REALI MISS U!

grr... Nid concentrate for my last paper!

Nitex dear, and sweetie dreams.. Hehe.. TAke care=P

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U know something?

I tried my best to study thermalphysic.. And guess wad? I may get zero for today's paper.. Damn crap.. When i hand up the paper, i could reali sense my tears deep within my heart..
Sad already..

Then after boarding the bus, i saw this fren of mine at the busstop.. I saw this fren msging.. And i called to say hi.. And u know wad? This fren, actuali hung up my call... Reali very disappointed... Damn sad + Reali disappointed = Screwed day..

Tks...

So dear.. Hows ur chem test today? Hope is not reali too hard.. Well slp tight k? Sweet dreams and take care=P

Today is reali a very bad day for me..

I

MISS

U

a

lot

suddenly!

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Hmmx.. Today's moon reali very pretty.. Got a pic of it, but i dunno how to upload my moon up the blog.. Hehe.

Today, while waiting for my bus, i was kinda looking up the sky, and guess wad? i saw this pretty moon up above... I kinda stare at the moon.. Cuz it was very pretty.. The moon, is round.. And high up in the dark sky, it gives off the gentle and smooth shimmering light.. Indeed lovely..
JUs the exact same feeling as seeing u.. Wosh...

Was kind of caught in a dazed till my dad smack me on my head.. Frankly speaking, if my dad didnt nidge me, i would have stayed there for hours.. Cuz the moon kind of reflects the happy moments that we have, the moments where i see ur pretty smile.. Reali glad to have these wonderful memories.. Hope we will have more wonderful moments to add to my memories.

Today, i have decided.. To let go of all this unhappiness within this three weeks.. Its time, where i start to take off.. from the place where i am once stuck.. I shall start by getting my academics path right, by getting As for my final semester tests... I shall get back my life, my hope, my goals, my confidences, my smiles, my precious moments with u..

U also must study hard.. Tuesday is ur chem test.. Must study reali very hard! Jiayou! But do have sufficient rest too.. Take care.. Smile always, for ur smile always bring joy to ppl who revolves around u. Take care and slp tight... =)

Thank you dear.. Tks..

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Well.. i Just came across this email.. And i am rather touched by this email.. I have also realised that i have kinda lose touch with God... Though i prayed to him everyday, i realised i am not reali very sincere.. Partially because i was disheartened by all the things happen around me.. It has all been moving real quickly and cruelly.. I am reali sorry=(

'Lord, I love you and I need you, come into my heart, and bless me, my family, my home, and my friends, in Jesus' name. Amen.'

Tks God for everything, the path that u has molded for me...

As usual, jus wanna wish u have an early nitex and dun be tooo stress upwith ur academics.. I am sure u can score pretty well for ur As.. Jia you! Slp tight and honey dreams.. Take care= )

Gosh.. back to study... Need toothpicks for my eyes le..

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Now i realise something... I am reali very behind time.. As in for school work.. And its reali tiring to... to... cover the important topics which i missed for the past two weeks.. Now, i jus have to bite my way through this harsh time and mug all the way..

My feelings now, i am actuali quite tensed and worried now.. Wad if, i am unable to ans the questions? Oh my.. For each question is lik 8 to 10 marks... Is either u get it correct or u get it wrong.. And there is no second chance.. My heart is actuali flustering.. Am i able to pull through..

I suddenly feel tat i am a failure.. In everything that i do.. Haiz.. I hope its not too late for me to pray=(

I miss u.. Nitex and slp tight.. Take care..

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Dear, enjoy ur lunch bah... Take care and all the best for ur studies... DUn get too stress too.. Take care...

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What are u tinking now? Hmmx..

Enjoy ur lunch and all the best for ur studies.. Have a great day too..

Take care...

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Hi dear... Wanna msg u, but i think i rather drop u a msg over here... Dun wanna bother u study.. Enjoy ur dinner and all the best for ur lessons, revision and everything...

Hmmx.. I miss u.. Good lukie..

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Dear, dear, dear, dear,dear,dear... Wow... Its been a long time since i have been calling u dear happily.. Tks... U know something? Last night is the first night where i reali slpt peacefully.. I was reali reali exhuasted, when i finalli gets everything out of my mind, i jus slpt and slpt.. Tks dear..

How have u been? Ur msg mentioned that u werent too gud.. Maybe u can share with me when the time is ripe.. Reali hope that u will not cry in future.. Reali hope that there aint any more obstacles in the near future, at least till ur A's is over..

Recently, i watched the movie, money not enough 2.. The show is about this grandma, she was being treated as a burden.. Her three sons dont want to take care of her, and they sent her to old folks home... She was very very very sad. But she live strong.. But when she realised that her survival will caused her grand daughter to die, she remove her oxygen mask herself and suicided.. This part is very very touching.. It made me drop tears in the cinema.. I tried to stop myself from being so weak.. But the tears kept streaming down.. Yes..I cried.. But i cry not beause of the show, i cried but because of all this incident that happens all around me.. I realise i was too numb to react.. So when i started crying over some touching scenes, i would not stop crying.. Haz... And my parents concsole me, saying this is onli a show... Haz..

When i see ur msg, i was also rather numb at first.. I dunno how to react, i dunno if this is jus a msg to console me.. BUt after a short nap, i have decided to follow my gut feeling.. I dunno if what i choose to believe is correct.. But lik wad he has said, follow ur guts feeling and u will not have any regrets.. Tks for ur listening ear... U has been a great aid to me.. Tks alot...

Now i shall reali reali focus on my studies.. Its time i start revising this two weeks studies.. Its time i prepare for my coming exams in lik less then 7 days..

Gan batte!! Jiayou in jap..
I love u...
Wishing u all the best in ur studies and coming mock test too.. Take care...

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I reali reali miss u alot... Today, is the last day of ndp, but i couldnt let my mind stop thinking abt u.. I will remember the time where no matter how busy i am while ushering those ppl, i will still msg u... But today, my phone did not even bother to nudge without u..=(

I MISS U BADLY=(

Emo-ing....

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Today shall be my last day of ndp show... DUnno if i am able to bring out the smile of mine, from the deepest heart of mine.. I have also started feeling tired already...

That day, i dunno why, but it seems that my hand went out of control and send u a msg.. And i was very surprised by the way u reply back.. It was a pleasant msg.. BUt hor, i jus feel very hurt...

Yesterday, i wanted to ask u about everything, as today is a public hols, so it wont affect u much.. I wanted to ask a thousand, a million WHY, but i jus not daring enuf to send it to u.. Call me coward bah... REali REali cant stand this.. Maybe i should stop msging, so that i can stop seeing hope, so that we can go separate ways, so that i wont feel so freaking exhuasted, so that i can start concentrating on my studies, so that u can truly be happy...

NBm... Dun wanna get too emo, if not later cant smile at all... BB...

Hope u enjoy ur holiday... Take care-Fren

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Damn... Life has been lifeless for me... Seriously, its lik meaningless.. Everyday, i jus forgo everything.. Jus forcing myself to concentrate on pool to avoid stupid thoughts... But last night, i reali couldnt stand it.. I, got the urge, to msg u.. Asking if there is still possibility.. But in the end,the msg ended in my draft again..

I cant believe i have actuali come to such circumstances, unknowingly, that i have numb myself with pool... Everyday, at least 4 hrs of pool...

I miss u.. I miss u.. I want u back in my arms.. Tearx are jus part of my life... Pool are jus something in which i numb myself with, u are always in my mind every single second..

I hate this feeling.. I hate it.. Darn...

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Finali.. I managed to close my eyes, let my mind to keep still for the past 18 hrs of long nice slp... Yesterday had ndp preview.. It was rather tiring and exhuasting for me...

In the afternoon, i met my group members.. Everyone was chatting happily, and i jus gave them some forceful smile of mine.. I did not reali talk much that day.. Our army personal -AJ- says we have this trend, that is to onli start smiling non stop at the ending of the show, but not since the starting... Hahaz... and i laugh..

However, when my job starts, seeing the crowd, i reali reali feel lik smiling.. But i dunno y, my cheeks are just too tired.. It is onli when i saw this malay couple, they were grinning face to face, and even say a Hi to me..=p Maybe its because of this warm feeling, for the rest of the hours, i started smiling.. In my mind- i wanted ppl who come for this NDP show not to feel grumpy over the long hours of waiting under the sun, so i smiled and smiled.. Normally, when i see ppl, even though they are strangers, i will smile at them.. I believe its my trait..

But hor.. That night, my cheek was feeling very very tired.. I came to realise that when ur heart is not smiling, not matter how sweet ur smile to others, it will still be very tiring... At least for me.. Haiz... Smile, is something which can makes ppl feel different.. Expressions are given to us for such reason... when u find no reason to smile, it means that ur heart is broken or u dun find any thing worth to smile...

Just when i tink my life is dead, he came to my rescue...

On my way home, my church mate called.. She asked me what happen to me, cuz i so long never go for fellowship.. I told her i got NDP, so saturday isnt free for me till after 9th of August.. She heaved a sigh of relieve upon hearing this... DUnno y, but my heart suddenly feel some warmth.. After which, she asked about things that have troubled me, and i just told her i am tired of life... Surprisingly, she did a short prayer immediately over the phone!.. I was lik wow.. Stun u noe.. Frankly speaking, i do not know her name, but hor, i got a strong feeling.. That is she was sent by god, to me-telling me not to gif up, for He will always be with me, despite the heaviest rain.. Tks God...

At night, when i reached home, i immediately fell aslp after bathing.. I slpt through the whole of sunday.. I guess i was too tired of everything...

Reali miss u leh.. I dunno y though.. I keep wanting to msg u.. But i am reali reali very scared..

NItex, sweet dreams dear, hope by not msging u, ur life wil be better off.. Though mine will not be better.. Take care and all the best for ur coming tests..

=( my heart is still tearing, bead by bead, flowing down the curve edges of my heart..

Drip, drip,drip=(

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