Once again, i was left walking alone.

I have hinted u, but u choose to hesitate.

The answer u gave is not wad i want to hear.

So from the moment i walk away,

It shall be the path that leads me out of ur life.

It do both of us good.

And u can continue to tell how u feel to D***

My heart is dead- totally

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This message is from my very best fren. His name is Ian. And he made me learn to be storng, to guide me when i am lost, when i am feeling that my life has become hopless.

Baby, although i dunno wad she msg u but i sure know its something hurting that will shatter ur heart.. it is true that love hurts but still u have to bravely face up to it and never bow ur head and conceive defeat. Because u nid to know that either of u dont have who is a lost to both. BUt since this is all fated, if u have done all that u have done to salvage wadever u can, but still shatters apart, u have to face it. stand strong and stay strong. love does not need to have pocessions of the person. as long as she lives in ur heart and is happy, you will be happy. that is true love. learning to let go for the better of both. its a painful journey and process but u know u are not alone. i will be there for u, throughout the whole process as ur support and courage jia you.

It is this massage that allows me to me to think clearly last night. Jus tis simple message, is enough to calm me down, and bring me out from depression. So reali wanna say tks to IAN LIM.

Jus for ur info, ian lim is a guy whom i have met in my trip to China. He is a very nice guy, and i think the biggest present i have bring back from china is the frenship with him. A deep thinker, a calm person, a far sighter. Yes thats the impression of him in my heart.

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The theory of a building. In life, if we were to build a building, there is something we all know, the higher the building, the higher the risk of getting it topple. And this has to be dependent on the basic foundation at the underground. The basic structure at the underground has much work to be done so that its able to allow this building to continue standing high, upright. If the structure is not done with the most care, when a strong winds come, it will just topple over.

So, have i lay down the most strong structure for the two of us? I guess not. A person intervene cause our structure to shake, terribly. Why? This is because this building is constructed single handedly. No matter how much the amount of trust is place inside, how much the faith is place inside, it is still only from one party. So how can this structure be stable?

To maintain mutual trust, both parties must play their parts. if u are afraid that another person might shake ur heart, then get away from that person, so that u will be able to go the way u wan, so that ur heart wont even get shaken. Like this u can save a lot of trouble. This is wad i have been trying to explain, but u seems to be angry, saying that i dun understand u.. haiz..

IF you were to say, my love is not as strong as b4, but why would I have spent so much effort in getting this building built for 2 years? Disappointment is just the word in my heart. U see, why would i wreck this building that i have built when i have already place so much sweat and effort in it?

So now, i would like u to choose. And no matter wad u choose, i will just respect ur decision,because, i do not want to build this structure single handledly. If we were to build, i will choose to build a higher one, a more stable one, with two pairs of hands, strongly clenched together, so that not even the slightest ant can crawl through.

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Today.. i am very upset.. Very very unhappy.. I dunno why, but i think i am getting jealous thats why.

Actually i regretted seating down with u waiting with u. Haiz.. I guessed i am just too dumb..

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Finali, i decided to let it all go...

My goals, my directions, my aims.. Everything has found their new directions. To get me move on with my life. So, now, i have learn to lean on god's shoulder. I have learnt to let everything goes as it is..

Wuhan trip has made me learn, made me grown. Its all tks to God's grace that i got this chance, this opportunity. Maybe after all, its God's will.

God's has its plan for me, its up to me to choose to follow or not. Well. i guess i am finali seeing the true meaning of this sentence.

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