This year Chinese New Year falls on the 26... But the important event falls on the 25 th of Jan. Just a msg from u- Dear, that send me over the moon, on cloud nine.. Its also the day in which i clear all my doubts, and work towards the new chapter of my life.

Today, it seems that god has started to remind me about my future.. What i shd do? Wads my aim? And i seems to have a goal in my mind already..

Oh cats lesson over, which means my wednesday from now on is free!! So its PooL time in the day, and Dear at night time= )

Hahaz..

Okok, from now onwards, i will move on! I shall not look backwards. I shall worked hard for my future...

Hey dar, nites and sweet dreams= ) slp tight too = ) Just to tell u, i am really very happy tonight= ) Hehe.. Take care..

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This morning woke up early to study.. But suddenly starts to miss my dear alot.. Arrg.... Jus kept thinking of u, till i couldnt study.. So decided to blog a bit...

Chingay is very very fun! I joined this year chingay parade as a motivator=) And my group is very fun?!!! Reali like them a lot.. They are all very smart.. And they always have a perfect way of doing things.. I reali admire them alot.. Well, every training, i have been trying to learn from them.. Oh and each group is attached to 30 Secondary school npcc cadets.. They are all very cute also=) All very shy at first, but after the ice breaking game, they have all become mischeivous monkey, shouting and cheering lik mad=) Yea, thats wad motivators should do=)

Think i better get back to my studies.. This semester i reali wans to get a very very goood grade..

Dear! All the best to u too=) i reali cant stop tinking of u.. oh gosh..

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Today is really a very tired day for me.. Did not manage to seep last night, because i was thinking of stuff... Then this morning, i like totally no mood to talk to anyone.. My poor fren, went to eat lunch with me, and we did not talk much.. because i am like so no mood.. Srryyy...

Then after that there is lik 4 hours straight lessons, and i was totally worn out.. reali reali very tired.. Haiz..

See? Last night i was still talking abt my aim, and today, i am so restless... Damn me...

Haiz... One more project, one organic bio quiz waiting for me, but i am soo tired..

Gosh.. Guess i gotta go le...

Bye dear... Nitez( ^_^ )

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Hmmx.. Reali very tired.. BUt still wanna jot this down...

Went for AGM today.. Reali din expect to gain anything.. Because it simply says "compulsary".

But when this staff-in-charge started the session, it's kinda impactful.

He was saying, when you are in poly, everyone wants to get out of poly as soon as possible, best is can get good grades before u graduates.. But, that is actually not the point.. The thing that is important is actually have u gotten ur prize throughout this poly journey? Well, this prize is actually- A complete phrase of your poly life.. It means that when u leave poly, u should be confidence enough to bring what u have learnt( Experiences, Knowledge, friends) to the outside world, and apply it so that it can bring u to greater heights.

Well, this kinds of reminds me, that i am actually running in a race aimlessly, desperately to get first.. Actually i reali dunno that what i should do in poly.. I wants to take up ambassador, but i fear the past.. I wants to join Hi-club, but there is an obstacle that i dun wish to overcome-at least for now..

Its quite ironic, everytime i goes to CF, i gain new experiences, i learn stuff that i have never thought off, and i will never get to sleep after that..

Hmmx... God is so wonderful, and always does things miraclously..

Tks... For thrice, i ran away from the path that u have paved for me, and for thrice, u have directed me back, miraclously... This is something that i am really really thankful for...

Dear, srry i din heed your advice.. I did not sleep early , because i reali wanna blog this out... I, at this point of time feels reali fortunate and hope to share with the rest.. Nites to u k? Sleep tights=) Honey dreams=) hehe.. Oh yea, u too, reali glad to have u by my side.. Tks for everything.. Tks... (^_^) hehe

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Hmmx.. Finali school has started.. And i haven gotten back my results. Sadly, all my papers have careless mistakes over them.. ><

Well, recently, instead of playing games, i have been addicted to listening to music.. Seriously addicted. In youtube, there is this little angel, she reali sings very well.. Oh my, i reali envy her, her talent in singing and playing the piano so well.. What amused me most is that the chords of the songs are instantly changed by her as she play the piano! Wow..

Now, i finali know, how powerful music is. It has reali slowed down my fast going pace in everything that i do, makes me relax, thinks, and keep my spirit up! Haz...

Oh ya, the song tong hua is already very nice, but tong hua in english version is even nicer!! hahaz

Hey dear.. NIte nite=) srry for unable to msging u during the days, reali been packed by lots of activities. k=) slp tight k? Sweet dreams=)

Oh ya, today is my most malu day ever!! I sent a msg to my dear this morning, and guess wad? i sent to the wrong person.. And worst still its a she.. oh gosh.. Then when i realised, its lik during evening.. Die sia, tmr still gonna meet her, cuz we will be going for chingay training session..

hahaz... NIte nite=) sweet dreams= )

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Indeed, time is cruel. It will never go back no matter how u beg, u cannot bribe time no matter how rich u are.. So, Me, Watashiwa Alan des, have been defeated by this cruel reality. I prayed for an answer, and i finally got the answer..

It is through a small activity during fellowship, that i have gain such a valuable lesson.. First, we played this game, we are told to write down things that we have regretted inside the piece of paper. Next we have to think of how this has made us yield, made us grow,made us learn from this experience. It is then when i actually thinks about the stuff that i have regretted badly. I have always regret leaving Jc.. But i have never thought of how this benefits me?! But now, i have an answer. So after we did some reflections, we prayed to God, and we crumpled the paper and threw them inside a bin. Leaving those setbacks behind, and bring those lessons learnt with us, and continue the journey that God has paved for us.

Seriously, i am glad that i have learnt my lesson. I have learn that God has made me fall, to be humble. I am srry..

Now, i have decided not to look back, i will live my life afresh. I will start from scratch again.. Yes.. Tks lord..

Oh and to my dear, i am glad for u getting such a great job.. And tks for everything... Tks...

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