Ahhh.. I have came to this dilemma.. Because.. i dunno wad is happening to me..

During this exam period... i have indeed had a great time studying.. revising.. But happy moment do flies...
Right now.. exam period is over.. and i kinda miss the times in the library.. This feeling is like so random.. I feel so afraid right now..

Aiyoyo.. blurr me.. haha... So i am here to xpress my feeling for the blog again.. =X

But hor.. today i feel so different leh.. not able to see her.. blah blah.. arrhh.. but seeing ur msg.. ur call.. aiyoyo.. i dunno why, but i am just feeling over the moon.. arrggg.. i dunno lahh...

OKok i go slp le... NItex

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For the past few days.. I could feel my life moving on.. Each day, i enjoy every single moment, joyous moment without stress, without worries...

But for today.. When i saw my whole grp of frens, my quick glance managed to catch my ex(i dun reali consider)'s eye in action. She was lik glaring at euu.. At that moment, i feel frightened.. i know its all my fault.. At that moment, i too was very frightened.. that she would make sarcastic comments abt u.. i even fear that... aiyo.. i tink is i watched too much movies le.. BUt at that moment, my heart has made a firm decision.. that is to ensure that u get protected at all cost..

And u know wad? It is this instance that i realised ur importance in my heart. Seeing that u are not reali feeling well today, i am very worried.. Though i wanted to help u, but i jus couldnt know wad went wrong with ur immune system.. so in the end, i can only worry from my heart.. haiz..

How i wish, things will not take a worst end. I fear to have that.. for i have just recover my footing and i dun wish to fall right back again..

Everyday, i msg u, msn u, facebook u, i am actuali rather weird.. Wad if.. ur reaction when seeing my msg is jus the same reaction as seeing JT's? I realise something.. that is u dunno how to reject.. even if u keep complaining, but u still give a nice response. Making ppl thinking in the wrong direction.. and the thing that i fear most is lik i will become like Jt.. U know, i rili got no faith in myself anymore..

So now, everyday, i jus include u in my prayers, wishing that god has grant piglet a healthy yet happy life. Praying that our frenship will last long. Praying for god to gif me a clearer direction.. Thats all i asked from god.. i know is very greedy.. BUt i am willing to exchange for anything as long as is for piglet...

Well.. especialy after i send u the msg, and u giving me the unfirm answer, my heart sank.. well.. I am bad at interpretting sentences. I always tink to the bad side.. SO ya.. i guess that msg is more towards the gloomy side bah...

Well.. i will try as much to keep my limit where my heart allows... Yup..BUt still, i rili wan to know the answer truthfully from ur heart...

Haha.. feeling much better after i have spilled these frustrating moment with my dearest blog.. Yup..
Tks for being there, to listen to my complain, listen to a coward's word. listen to someone useless complaining.. Tks.


How do i control my heart? I never had such a strong feeling b4.. Weird..

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Its been a long time since i felt such feelings... The feeling of true joy in my heart.. Making me look forward to each coming day..

Yup.. Its u piglet..

Frankly speaking, initially, my heart was broken, shattered.. Getting to know u- i guess it was a god gift. U motivates me to study, to get on with my life.. Each day passes, and slowly... i noticed a slight change.. At first, this changes was very mild... But as times goes by, i realise my heart was healing.. Day after day, i could lift myself out of the agony, and finally found the true joy coming out from my heart. My life seems to be moving.. Yup.. tks piglet...

I know i must have think too much.. But this all is actuali true for me!
Its been along time since i felt joy.. The feeling is reaili nice..
From the moment i drank the honey, i could felt the warmth..
Hmmx.. At least my heart is beating...
And now, its palpitating...

Do u know that everyday, i have been studying very hard because my life is burning of passion again?
Yup... Tired me due to the burning of midnight studying oil.. My life seems to spring back to life now...

So now, i dare not hope for anything more already...
Let everything move at this speed.. Slowly, firmly..
Praying that everything will be alright, everything is NOT a dream
GIVING tks to the almighty GOD, for relighting my beacon of light, drawing me to the direction that god has planned for me..

Tks GOD for the name we pray.. AMEN..

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