My life, right now, is totally bleak.. crossroads seems to intertwine... my heart follows.. my mind is a blank.. everyday, i seem to live my day, painfully... My brain is dying! It seems as though it has been suffocated.. no oxygen....

Everyday, my mood goes high to low, low to high.. never at all steady.. when it comes to the night, i will feel so tired, exhuasted and shag.. maybe tis is wad u call- a living zombie.. Its hard to leave on, without emotions, without hope, without confidence... Maybe a sharp snap ard my neck would ends all...

Betraying, not honouring of words... this is wad have been going on and on around my mind.. Sometime, it makes me dun even feel belong to tis world.. for i am too weak to survive such torturous treatment in the real life world..

Havin a body without a proper control of emotion is lik hell... sometime laugh, sometime tears just trickled down the cheek.. it seems as though a mad person is around.

But wad can i do? where is my beacon of light? too bad.. its all hidden... its all covered.. no shd i say, its all gone.. no longer there..

so yup.. right now, alan, is practically lifeless...

academics- flunk...
pool- moodless, impossible
cca- faith
attitude- gone
hope- dash
life- human zombie
future- bleak
time- ticking away, but nthing is done
meal- eat for the sake of parents

haha.. useless dolphin... Cant even try to escape from the torturous human life...
yup yup- this is my life...

Labels: I shall be strong