2nd time loggin today... Reached school at 8.. but till now, haven even attend a single lesson.. best... Originally wanna study for jap test de, but in the end, my mind cant even remember a single phrase. Suddenly everything seems so hard, so complicated.. That my brain aint fast enough to work.. After a while, my brain started floating to else where again... and my tears started rolling down again...

Crapped... Then suddenly, my fren call, y u not going for lesson? is not i wan pon de, is i know even if i go, i will also be dreaming away.. my brain is not working, then wad can i do? Gonna fail my final jap exam.. yea, maybe i should jus skip the test and get a straight zero instead.

Sometime reali wonder, why does god gives us feelings? Is that a blessing or a blessing in disguise? Nice.. i dunno y, i thought i am able to cope with my emotions, cope with such small matters. but i cant even do it..

My fren ask me play pool.. Pool leh.. the only activity that will cheer me up when i am most upset de, but today i actuali decline.. Something reali wrong with me..

I dunno y, but i realised i have been very childish. So childish that i thought i was matured enough to decide on what i was doing.. My judgement.. i now too have doubts for my judgement..
What does this makes me now?Maybe i reali haf to tink through thoroughly...

I dont feel anger, i dont feel tired, and i told myself not to be sad..
But tears jus seems out of my control.. Hahaz(useless me)



Praying.....

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