Hmmx... Today was peaceful.. My soul, my mind was pretty calm, jus lik the sea breeze gently blowing against the surface of the ocean, causing smooth ripples along its route.. Not because i was happy, not because everything thing was back to normal, is just that i have managed to tidy up my feelings... i think..

At night, i still cant reali get to slp immediately.. The feeling is jus not right.. Without ur msg, without ur presence... But i guess i will get used to it.. Someone from my cca once said, the price of good stuff is that u gotta wait.. i hope i will get it back one day.. >.<

Seriously, this time round, u made me realised something.. That i am reali emotionally weak.. Cant withstand even a single hit.. My Hi club instructor was commenting, saying that i look very scary when i dont smile.. So i tried to smile, but my cheeks wont moved.. Cuz i couldnt find any reason to laugh any more.. I tried smiling at the camera, but my smile looked so fake.. Maybe, this is what ppl meant by empty smile...

On friday, which is yesterday, was this performance for Hi club closing ceremony... i was truly amazed by the power of handsign... Each class manage to sign out the whole song very smoothly and nicely.. Cool.. However, when coming to the climax, is the high school musical song.. i was trying to enjoy, but sadness overwhelmed me.. Cuz the songs remind me of u...

On my way home, my fren told me, she cried in class for no reason... And this reminds me of the past few hours, she has been smiling... However, her smile are not as pure... I am reali reali afraid that my smile will forever become so fake...

Haiz.. This is life, and we have to admit it... Once done, there is no turning back, so to my fren and myself, wadever thats' past, we jus leave it behind bah... And pray that we will have better future..

Labels: I shall be strong