Today is not a good day.. Especially when u did not slp for the past 96 hours.. Reali feeling very exhausted le... Play pool for 8 hours today.. First 2 hours was a pain.. Missing every single shot(Far shot which needs concentration) And when i thought i should go off, this guy challenged me to a match... He got his cue and glove while i onli brought my glove.. He was kinda arrogant in front of his gal which kinda pissed me off.. Though i know i cant even keep my dear, u shouldnt be picking me to make u feel happie.. So, I decided to throw away all ugly thoughts, all my distraction, and concentrate...

Boom... I break the ball, two ball went in.. Two solid ball.. As usual, i will go for the one with more left over... The stripes placing was good,-no, should be perfect.. I can see every dotted line on the table jus lik playing computer.. Slowly, calmly, i took every single shot, with great care... The first push and i can feel the soft tap hitting at the tip of my cuestick, the ball moving slowly but with a solid direction where it is going... And i score!!!! Every single motion seems so perfect..Same goes for the second shot, the third shot and so on...

Gradually, i realised something, i am aiming at my black ball now=P I looked at the fellow in his eye, and without blinking, i point to the last pocket-initating my last ball direction(without mercy)

When i aimed, i slowly push out my cue, letting it hit the ball, i thought i could feel the guy screaming, when...
The black ball fitted nicely into the pocket! Yes... Oh my... The guy din even get a freaking chance to touch my table..Best..

I stared at him, not grinning, not smiling, and i told him its over.. His expression-wanted to smile but cant- reali pissed me off.. From the moment he stared at me practicing my ball, he should have known not to picked me.. Though i am weak, though i am useless, but when come to pool, i think u should consider twice.. As for his gf, i do not reali care how she feel.. Maybe she tinks that i shold have given his bf face.. But so? Am i nice to be bully when i am emo-ing?

Then without saying another word, even a bye, i racked the ball and started on my own game...

Even though i have won him, i did not even smile.. Though its rare when i can complete a game without letting an opponent touch the table, i feel empty... I feel lik crying out.. I reali do not know y...

Now, i have no aim, no goal.. Jus a useless freak.. I have to start everything from scratch.. From getting a true smile to making my day filled with rainbow.. I know its hard. i know it seems impossible..

Oh, while typing this, i suddenly thought about my ndp group mate.. She once told me she got two realtionship, but its that they are just short term.. i asked how, then u must be feeling very bad... But in the end, her reply was used to it can le.. what the... I guessed in this world, relationship for teenagers are so common that it has become a game... Haiz..

I shouldnt start thinking le.. I very scared my tears will run dry...

Nitex... Sweet dreams dear..I mean fren.. Take care.. No matter what, u should be happy all the time! Take care...

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