For the past few days.. I could feel my life moving on.. Each day, i enjoy every single moment, joyous moment without stress, without worries...

But for today.. When i saw my whole grp of frens, my quick glance managed to catch my ex(i dun reali consider)'s eye in action. She was lik glaring at euu.. At that moment, i feel frightened.. i know its all my fault.. At that moment, i too was very frightened.. that she would make sarcastic comments abt u.. i even fear that... aiyo.. i tink is i watched too much movies le.. BUt at that moment, my heart has made a firm decision.. that is to ensure that u get protected at all cost..

And u know wad? It is this instance that i realised ur importance in my heart. Seeing that u are not reali feeling well today, i am very worried.. Though i wanted to help u, but i jus couldnt know wad went wrong with ur immune system.. so in the end, i can only worry from my heart.. haiz..

How i wish, things will not take a worst end. I fear to have that.. for i have just recover my footing and i dun wish to fall right back again..

Everyday, i msg u, msn u, facebook u, i am actuali rather weird.. Wad if.. ur reaction when seeing my msg is jus the same reaction as seeing JT's? I realise something.. that is u dunno how to reject.. even if u keep complaining, but u still give a nice response. Making ppl thinking in the wrong direction.. and the thing that i fear most is lik i will become like Jt.. U know, i rili got no faith in myself anymore..

So now, everyday, i jus include u in my prayers, wishing that god has grant piglet a healthy yet happy life. Praying that our frenship will last long. Praying for god to gif me a clearer direction.. Thats all i asked from god.. i know is very greedy.. BUt i am willing to exchange for anything as long as is for piglet...

Well.. especialy after i send u the msg, and u giving me the unfirm answer, my heart sank.. well.. I am bad at interpretting sentences. I always tink to the bad side.. SO ya.. i guess that msg is more towards the gloomy side bah...

Well.. i will try as much to keep my limit where my heart allows... Yup..BUt still, i rili wan to know the answer truthfully from ur heart...

Haha.. feeling much better after i have spilled these frustrating moment with my dearest blog.. Yup..
Tks for being there, to listen to my complain, listen to a coward's word. listen to someone useless complaining.. Tks.


How do i control my heart? I never had such a strong feeling b4.. Weird..

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